Do you have a moment to find some of yourself in me? Would you follow me into the depths of a self-confined prison, fully encompassed by darkness, that I allowed myself to be imprisoned in for several years. The sentencing was predetermined by my brain-chemistry and deficiency of several neurotransmitters. The moment sentencing came to an end, was the moment I was born. The conclusion of the trial was decided by a jury of my genetic peers – I was sentenced to life in solitary confinement to my own mind; all the while, having low levels of serotonin, norepinephrine, and dopamine. Embarking on my personal journey through the fog of indifference, insomnia, and irritability that I experienced as a teenager were early indicators that ended with me in the doctors office with no words for how heavy everything felt. I was not violent (Thank the Universe), but my verbal abuse of others and inner turmoil I could not explain, led me to a dark place of isolation from social interaction. These were foreshadowing the suffering and isolation that would consume my late teens and early twenties and swallow them whole disregarding all of the opportunities missed and genuine human connection/interaction I simply did not want to have. As an adult (kinda, 25-years old), I was able to find out what was different about me all along. I was suffering from Chronic Depression and Anxiety Disorders without treatment. I got therapeutic treatment in September of 2017 (I continue to remain in therapy for my own sake), and want to share what I’ve learned that may help you find yourself looking deeper into your emotional health and recognize reoccurring patterns in your life that may indicate signs of mental illness, or maybe just a need to see a therapist. Finding help is not below you. When you feel that your thoughts are harming you, and in turn harming others as a result of emotional distress, it is time to speak to a professional that can help find the root where the feelings you want to escape are stemming from. From there, you will most likely talk about your feelings, why you feel them, and how others make you feel. An almost diary-like mental inventory helps remind you what you are feeling, why you are expressing them the way you do, and how to recognize the unpleasant emotions and let them pass by without cultivating them. Dwelling on an unpleasant thought resembles selfishness in the purest form. You can turn this thought into a mental hamster wheel, while only creating more negative thoughts and giving room for anger to grow as a secondary emotion.